First Blog Post Approaching Empty Nest Syndrome

Very soon I will be in the car with my first born headed toward Kalamazoo, MI. I am excited for this day, and I am dreading this day. My best friend, my #1, my first born, my only child, my beautiful baby girl is going to start college. She's grown up so much over the last 2 years. I am so very proud of the way she carries herself with class and integrity.

I've been a single mother for the last 16 years with close to ZERO assistance from her father. We have had a very difficult life with my every day filled with guilt because I can't give her more. Heidi never made me feel guilty; that was my own doing. And now she's going to have a bumpy start at college. I don't even have enough to buy all of her books. I feel terrible, but I am already using the rent/bill and grocery money and there is nothing left.  I plan on calling the Trio group on campus, not sure if they can help me out or have any suggestions.  The financial aid was supposed to cover more, not sure what happened. At least she has work study, and has a job waiting for her when she gets there.

I have been writing a blog about my long distance relationship (ldr) of 11 years.
http://kimberlyandvernon.blogspot.com . The reason Vernon and I have been in an ldr for so long is because we both decided to put our kids first. Once they are grown, we will think about closing the distance. I will write this blog to help me pass the time when I'm missing my daughter. I hope that she will read it, understand my point of view and be kept up to date on how I've been passing my time now that I'm completely on my own.  This will be my first time living on my own. I hope I remember to feed myself. :)