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Saturday, August 28, 2010

Packing

We are packing her belongings, old, new, borrowed, blue.. wait, that's for something else, anyway... we're packing up all of Heidi's crap. Check out the new trunk. Made that purchase from http://www.trunksusa.com well, it's more of an investment. This should last her through college, her first home, marriage, and maybe her kids will take it to college. Anyway, I'm really happy with it and it will go nicely in her dorm.

I've only cried once today. Gilmore girls is "our show" and Heidi put it in the dvd player as I was getting our breakfast today and the theme song came on and I started to cry. I had to pull it together before I came into the living room. So far, for the remainder of the day I have been pretty good. Mom is here to lend me moral support and her car... we are taking that to Kalamazoo, MI so I'll need to start loading that puppy up tonight. I have a scary feeling that we are going to run out of room. I really hope not.

I plan on recording the process with my new flip camera. I warned Heidi ahead of time and I told her not to be a brat about it. I'm going to film whether she likes it or not. I think she'll be cooperative. I'll be doing this for myself and for Vernon, who will be interested in this process. He'd be here if he could so I thought recording it would be the next best thing.

 I had better get back to work before I get into trouble for slacking off.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

First Blog Post Approaching Empty Nest Syndrome

Very soon I will be in the car with my first born headed toward Kalamazoo, MI. I am excited for this day, and I am dreading this day. My best friend, my #1, my first born, my only child, my beautiful baby girl is going to start college. She's grown up so much over the last 2 years. I am so very proud of the way she carries herself with class and integrity.

I've been a single mother for the last 16 years with close to ZERO assistance from her father. We have had a very difficult life with my every day filled with guilt because I can't give her more. Heidi never made me feel guilty; that was my own doing. And now she's going to have a bumpy start at college. I don't even have enough to buy all of her books. I feel terrible, but I am already using the rent/bill and grocery money and there is nothing left.  I plan on calling the Trio group on campus, not sure if they can help me out or have any suggestions.  The financial aid was supposed to cover more, not sure what happened. At least she has work study, and has a job waiting for her when she gets there.

I have been writing a blog about my long distance relationship (ldr) of 11 years.
http://kimberlyandvernon.blogspot.com . The reason Vernon and I have been in an ldr for so long is because we both decided to put our kids first. Once they are grown, we will think about closing the distance. I will write this blog to help me pass the time when I'm missing my daughter. I hope that she will read it, understand my point of view and be kept up to date on how I've been passing my time now that I'm completely on my own.  This will be my first time living on my own. I hope I remember to feed myself. :)